SusanWonderStone's Blog

My doctor gave me copies of the records he received from Seattle Cancer Care Alliance.   I knew the doctors there didn’t understand me.  I knew most people didn’t understand my decision to utilize alternative treatments for the cancer I was dealing with.  Aside from other people telling me on a regular basis the stuff I was doing was crazy, some told me I was crazy.  There were so many times I wondered if they were right.  The things I was doing made sense to me.  The traditional treatments, their side effects and the incredibly low survival statistics they carried did not make sense to me at all.  I don’t know anyone who has made as many changes in their life as I have – just for survival.  There have been several times I’ve stopped doing some of the treatments in an effort to “live” like everyone else does, and the lumps came back.  I’ve gone back to eating “normal” and the lumps came back.  People think my hours in the sauna are a luxury, they think my time in the hyperbaric chamber is just weird, they would never consider eating only from my list of foods.  I’ve been called nuts, crazy and weird to my face.  Who knows what they say behind my back.  I know I’m alive and well today because of the choices I’ve made.  I know I think differently than most people.   Passing the background check and psychological exam for my job were an indication to me that I was in some way normal.   I’ve been working there 2 years, so aside from my alternative health care ideas, I must in some ways fit in.  I had a co-worker tell me last week, “I’d take your body, but not what you put in it”.  I was drinking a green drink.  She’ll probably never know what it really feels like to feel good.  That’s weird to me!