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Gothic Basin – 2 weeks and 2 days after black salve. I wouldn’t recommend it!

After I posted “Black Salve Results at 2 weeks” on July 1, a friend commented on the Facebook photo “That looks Brutal!” It was!

I responded “It’s making me sweaty and nauseous. When things get brutal, I show them what brutal is. Gothic Basin, here I come!” I’m not sure what I was thinking. I’ve been home 48 hours and I’m too tired to write. For now, enjoy the scenery. I’ll tell you all about it soon.  It’s not all rainbows and unicorns as the pictures might show. 



I Can’t Watch You Die

Talking to a friend last night, she said things I’ve heard before. As many of you know, My recurrent melanoma diagnosis was in 2004. I got divorced that year, but we still lived together. In 2005, he moved out of state, saying among other things, that he was tired of me being sick. He didn’t want to watch me die. He wanted to remember me the way I used to be, not with failing health and death. I went to Mexico for cancer treatments for the first time in 2006. I met many people from all over the world. All of the men except 2, were there with their wives. One woman’s husband and brother came to support her during her treatments. The rest of us came by ourselves. All of us were in relationships when we got sick, but found ourselves alone, having cancer treatments in a country other than our own.

What makes a person stick around when the one they love is sick? What makes a person stick around when the one they love is dying? What makes others stay?

Last year when I got home from having cancer treatments in Mexico, my hero of over 4 years moved out. Among other things, he said he couldn’t watch me die. I thought I was dying and he “knew” it. He had seen me sick, but I’m sure he didn’t expect me to be worse when I got home than when I went. Immediately when he said it, I remembered my ex saying the same thing.

I’ve been friends with many cancer patients, but never had one as a partner. I’ve only been the cancer patient in my relationships. I guess I don’t know for sure what I would have done if he had been the one with the “terminal” diagnosis. Yes, I do. You know what I’d do too, but I really want understanding as to why a person would leave when their partner is sick and/or dying. Someone, please explain it to me!

Back to last night on the phone. My friend’s partner told her “I can’t watch you die”

He said he’s going to leave town and will come back after she dies to take care of things. How will he feel then? Do people who think they’ll be better off staying away, still feel like they did the right thing after their partner dies?  It happens a lot!  It’s very common for the “healthy” partner to leave when the other is sick. Are they scared? I have another friend who’s boyfriend left her. Was it because he couldn’t live with himself that he died from a massive heart attack without any warning?

For me, I tell myself I fight harder when I’m alone. I know there have been times along my cancer journey that I’ve been stressed out about my kid, my dogs, anything that I felt needed my attention, and those are the things that kept me in the game. Do I really fight harder?

Last year, about a month before going to Mexico, the video Say Something (I’m giving up on you) by A Great Big World and Christina Aguilera came on. Tears streamed down my face as I watched the crying, elderly man climb into a hospital bed with a motionless, elderly woman that he obviously loves. I didn’t want that to be my hero, my son, or my mom. I felt what I felt they would feel if I died. I didn’t want that! It was in that moment, I set out to figure out how I was going to get to Mexico to kick things up a few notches to get my health back.

I often wonder if the person who leaves the relationship when their partner is sick and/or dying, has an easier life. Do they fill the void with other people? Does that work? What if, instead of leaving, they loved their partner as much as they could. Could excess love heal their lover?

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Rocks I found at Playas de Tijuana and painted for patients, staff and myself

I am so happy and grateful that my belief in myself has exceeded the belief others had of me. My rebellious spirit has kept me alive! My passive aggressive nature tells me to not only get well, but to be more successful in every area of my life than any of my non-believing pasts ever believed I could. Instead of letting them be right, I’m on a mission to find the things that are holding me back, eliminate them, and create my new, beautiful life!

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Love, gratitude and blessings!

~Susan

 



Black Salve ~Day 5

This picture was taken 8 hours after yesterday’s. Immediately after taking the picture, I sprayed ASEA on it. After it dried, I applied RENU28. My blog posts also show up on Facebook. Like many times in the past, someone said it looks like shingles. My oncologists at Seattle Cancer Care Alliance and my primary care physician, did several viral cultures on lesions in the past. All viral and bacterial cultures have come back negative.  I stopped letting them do them in 2008. It didn’t make sense to pay for something I already know the answer to. I got really nasty with 3 oncologists when one of them suggested it was shingles, within minutes of telling me the viral culture was negative. Shingles is a virus. That story is in the book I’m not finished writing and possibly somewhere in the archives of this blog. I sprayed ASEA and applied more RENU28 before I went to bed. It was a rough night sleeping. The pain from the reaction to the bandage was more painful than the owie itself.

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8 hours after last picture. After applying ASEA and RENU28, most of the redness from reacting to bandage has diminished.

As you can see, most of the allergic reaction diminished, except for where it’s more like a cut. The whiter part in the center is where I actually applied the black salve. It isn’t on the surface of the skin, but I can feel the lump underneath. I can feel it on the inside when I roll my neck, or on the outside when I feel around with my fingers. It feels like the size and hardness of half an avocado pit. It has only felt this hard and solid for the last 2 weeks. Before, it felt significantly larger in diameter, but softer.

It didn’t react like the others have. It seems to just have a few surface lesions. The lump itself feels much deeper than the spots feel. I still feel twinges of pain, going down my back and around my neck. Whatever it is, I hope it lets go and allows me to move on. Life is good!

Love, gratitude and blessings

~Susan



Enhanced Coffee Enema

Several people asked me this week about how I’m doing my enemas now, so instead of texting them all, posting it here made more sense. Without all the details as to why, the ingredients are what they were looking for.

**** Mineral Enema ****
My doctor in Mexico started me on sodium bicarbonate ivs when I got there. I really wanted a different iv, so I asked if I could put baking soda in an enema and do the other iv instead. He agreed. Drinking baking soda will help to alkalize the body, but it also neutralizes stomach acid and inhibits digestion.  Using it rectally also alkalizes the body, but doesn’t interfere with digestion.

1 t Concentrace liquid trace mineral supplement, 2 t sea salt, 1T baking soda,  in 16 oz purified water.

I am usually able to hold it for 30 minutes. Apparently, my body knows it needs it.

I also use this enema when I return from an intense hike or workout, but add 2oz – 4oz ASEA to it.  My recovery time has drastically reduced since I started doing it.

**** Enhanced Coffee Enema **** Organic Enema Coffee

I usually do 2 every day, but sometimes just the mineral enema, followed by one enhanced coffee enema. Recipe will be for one.

3T organic coffee – boiled for 5 minutes, then simmered for 15 minutes in 32 oz water.  Some of the water will boil off, but that’s okay.  We need the space in the jar for the other ingredients. While the coffee is cooling, I add the other ingredients to a quart size mason jar.

1T Hemp seed oil, 1T Flax seed oil, 1T mct oil, 1T sunflower lecithin, 1/2 t powdered vitamin c, 1 capsule “super enzymes”, 1 capsule B100 complex, 1/2 of a 40,000 heat unit cayenne capsule, 1/2 t Concentrace liquid trace mineral supplement.  I strain the coffee through a metal coffee filter and pour into the jar with the rest of the ingredients.  I shake it around as I’m pouring the entire mixture into the Blendtec or Vitamix to get all of the oil and powders off the side of the jar. Blend on medium or higher for about 15 seconds to emulsify the oils with the sunflower lecithin.
My body is deficient in iodine, so I also add 2 drops Atomidine.  Don’t do this if your iodine levels are good.  It can increase your heart rate.  That’s no fun unless you’re wrestling naked with your best friend!

**** Wheat Grass Enema ****

This is mainly for detox, but is loaded with chlorophyll and contains over 90 minerals, including high concentrations of potassium, calcium, magnesium and sodium.  It is densely packed with nutrients and contains 19 amino acids.  Wheat grass juice helps the body to build red blood cells, which carry oxygen to every cell.

I use 2-4 ounces of freshly pressed wheat grass juice in water to 16 ounces.  I’ve been told to do it straight, but it seems like half of it stays in the enema tube, so I add water.

Today’s focus was getting nutrition in the body as much as detoxing.

Let me know if you have questions!

Love, gratitude and blessings

~Susan

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http://www.youtube.com/user/SStory67

ImageI got a call a few days ago, just 5 hours after my new site www.susan-story.com went live.  I was asleep with my ringer turned off, but still, it was my first call.  We played phone tag for a couple days, but connected yesterday.  I didn’t ask her if I could write about her, so I’ll call her Ruby.  She had been searching YouTube for information on coffee enemas.  Y’all know, I’m the clean colon queen, but Ruby just discovered it.  She was very thankful for the information in my videos, not having found it anywhere in the past.  Most of the videos I’ve seen, are done by people who have obviously never done it themselves.  The most common directions would have even the most flexible yoga guru struggling to figure it out.  I don’t believe in doing things by directions that don’t make sense, so I figure out a better way and share it so others can benefit too.

Ruby was diagnosed with advanced cancer 2 years ago when she was 78 years old.  I don’t know how old he is, but her husband sounded older than she did on the phone.  Her doctors told her about the possible and probable side effects of the chemotherapy they thought she would benefit the most from.  She believed that if she experienced the side effects, her husband wouldn’t be capable of taking care of her.  She wasn’t ready to check out, but more so, wasn’t interested in the quality of life she’d have from the chemo.  She told me about her diet.  She told me about the home treatments and supplements she’s taking.  She told me about how “they” inject you with radioactive sugar when they do a PET scan to see the increased activity of the cancer cells to determine where and to what extent the cancer is.  I was so excited to hear someone who had not only done their homework, but was taking action to get well!  She didn’t tell me how long they gave her, but since I don’t believe in that crap, I didn’t ask either.  She had questions about the coffee enemas, about the other treatments I do and about her choice for her diet.

Cancer is cancer.  My belief is to detox the body and fill it with nutrients.  My diet is working for me, but that doesn’t mean it will work for everyone.

At 80 years old, Ruby is proactive with her own health.  Her attitude is amazing!  She searched alternative treatments.  She found my YouTube channel and watched several of my videos.  She didn’t mention “How to Avoid Butt Sex”, so she probably missed that one!  She clicked on “About”, found my website, went to “Contact” and called me.  I’m SO proud of her and SO thankful to be her cheerleader!

I made a decision to coach “healthy” people and set up the website.  I know my mortgage and utility companies don’t care, but I will always have room in my heart for cancer patients who can’t afford me.  Keep fighting Ruby!  I love you – beautiful woman!

 

Love, gratitude and blessings

~Susan



All About Hope

Our All About Hope skydiving photo.  All About Hope is a 501c3 non profit that helps adult stage 4 cancer patients get end of life paperwork taken care of, plan their memorial service and grant a wish on their “Bucket List”.  We’re making a difference!  Check out our website at www.allabouthope.us and make a donation to help us continue granting wishes!Image